1 00:00:18,239 --> 00:00:20,599 Julia Windischbauer 2 00:00:24,479 --> 00:00:27,079 Sebastian Koch 3 00:00:28,559 --> 00:00:31,879 Chais Naver, Claire Bender Leopold Vita 4 00:00:38,319 --> 00:00:42,799 Creator of the series: Hagai Levy According to Etty Hilsum's diaries 5 00:00:47,879 --> 00:00:50,079 , in just two months , almost involuntarily 6 00:00:50,279 --> 00:00:53,479 His exercises worked wonders for me 7 00:00:54,279 --> 00:00:58,759 .Suddenly, I started living differently Freer, more "flowing". 8 00:01:00,359 --> 00:01:04,159 At first, completely under the influence , his magical personality 9 00:01:05,439 --> 00:01:09,119 , but gradually My soul also responded to this 10 00:01:12,919 --> 00:01:15,279 with me 11 00:01:15,359 --> 00:01:19,679 Chapter 3: My Medieval Darkness 12 00:01:30,759 --> 00:01:33,839 I know exactly How I used to feel 13 00:01:35,039 --> 00:01:38,599 I would feel that this great beauty , hurts my heart 14 00:01:40,599 --> 00:01:43,279 But I wouldn't know what .to do with it 15 00:01:44,079 --> 00:01:46,399 And then I would feel like I was , must write 16 00:01:46,559 --> 00:01:49,279 But the words were hard to come by 17 00:01:49,639 --> 00:01:51,999 .and I would feel completely miserable 18 00:01:57,479 --> 00:01:58,919 But today 19 00:01:59,839 --> 00:02:01,639 I reacted completely differently 20 00:02:04,319 --> 00:02:07,799 I was still deeply moved , of the same mysterious beauty, as before 21 00:02:09,759 --> 00:02:12,559 But I no longer wanted to achieve Owning it 22 00:02:15,039 --> 00:02:21,399 He no longer paralyzed me. I didn't sink .more in... this mental masturbation 23 00:02:24,239 --> 00:02:26,519 What is Jacob looking at? 24 00:02:26,679 --> 00:02:28,519 Well Class! 25 00:02:29,239 --> 00:02:30,599 : I'll tell you 26 00:02:30,919 --> 00:02:32,199 .on her chest 27 00:02:32,759 --> 00:02:35,919 I never understood what it was called "For the picture" Jacob wrestles with the angel 28 00:02:36,039 --> 00:02:37,839 .it's totally a sex scene 29 00:02:38,319 --> 00:02:40,279 ?Maybe because you've never wrestled 30 00:02:40,359 --> 00:02:43,679 Ma'am, you are talking .with a former sailor 31 00:02:44,279 --> 00:02:47,239 Ten years at sea. believe me I wrestled 32 00:02:48,199 --> 00:02:49,359 Come on 33 00:02:56,879 --> 00:02:58,559 What are you writing? 34 00:02:58,919 --> 00:03:02,959 Still "the girl who couldn't kneel." knee"? -No 35 00:03:03,279 --> 00:03:04,919 So what are you working on now? 36 00:03:06,879 --> 00:03:08,759 ...well, me 37 00:03:10,079 --> 00:03:11,519 ...I actually kind of 38 00:03:11,759 --> 00:03:14,119 Listen, you have to start .share your creation with people sometime 39 00:03:14,199 --> 00:03:15,479 I write a diary 40 00:03:18,959 --> 00:03:22,359 I have a feeling that I stepped on here .something, Klass 41 00:03:23,679 --> 00:03:28,599 Maybe... writing and confession .in the form of a mass 42 00:03:30,279 --> 00:03:32,959 I feel it is more .suits me from prose 43 00:03:33,999 --> 00:03:35,799 ?I can read a little 44 00:03:37,039 --> 00:03:38,239 No 45 00:03:40,839 --> 00:03:43,519 I'm starting a new season of "The Red Thread" 46 00:03:44,399 --> 00:03:48,919 You can read there and talk ...on all the 47 00:03:48,999 --> 00:03:50,799 ...thanks for the offer, but 48 00:03:51,559 --> 00:03:53,319 .that's not the point right now 49 00:03:54,599 --> 00:03:55,959 .No one is allowed to read this 50 00:03:59,879 --> 00:04:01,399 ?You look good, you know 51 00:04:04,879 --> 00:04:08,399 It's so you, look good .when everything around is so terrible 52 00:04:10,839 --> 00:04:12,039 Are you in love? 53 00:04:14,879 --> 00:04:17,039 Class! ?What- 54 00:04:17,279 --> 00:04:20,639 Let me remind you that I am alive .with a charming man for three years 55 00:04:22,839 --> 00:04:24,759 ?How long have I known you? 56 00:04:25,679 --> 00:04:27,359 It turns out not enough 57 00:04:31,199 --> 00:04:32,479 I am indeed going through something 58 00:04:34,839 --> 00:04:38,479 .and it is true that it has something to do with... a man 59 00:04:39,359 --> 00:04:43,359 .okay ...he gave me exercises, kind of- 60 00:04:44,519 --> 00:04:46,079 .emotional tools 61 00:04:48,639 --> 00:04:51,199 And yes, there was a connection between us 62 00:04:51,639 --> 00:04:53,319 .An intellectual connection 63 00:04:54,919 --> 00:04:58,519 For a moment it seemed that maybe , it could be more than that 64 00:04:59,319 --> 00:05:02,719 But luckily, he was .smart enough to prevent it 65 00:05:05,639 --> 00:05:07,479 ?How 66 00:05:08,839 --> 00:05:11,639 In that he simply removed .the possibility that we will see each other 67 00:05:18,439 --> 00:05:20,159 Why don't you come with me to Hilversum? 68 00:05:20,719 --> 00:05:23,719 I can't I have to go to university 69 00:05:25,439 --> 00:05:28,239 You have your whole life to spend at the university 70 00:05:28,319 --> 00:05:30,519 , and as I know you That's exactly what will happen 71 00:05:34,399 --> 00:05:35,919 You have really changed 72 00:05:36,239 --> 00:05:37,799 I told you 73 00:05:39,079 --> 00:05:41,999 What happened to the passion years? Our wonders 74 00:05:42,079 --> 00:05:43,519 ?In the forests of Deventer 75 00:05:44,439 --> 00:05:47,359 Oh, it lasted exactly two months .and that was ten years ago 76 00:05:48,479 --> 00:05:51,599 It's a shame you have to reduce it ...well- 77 00:06:04,879 --> 00:06:07,279 Hey, what are you doing? hi 78 00:06:08,599 --> 00:06:09,959 ! Take down this sign "Jews are prohibited from entering" 79 00:06:10,839 --> 00:06:11,679 .Hey, take it down 80 00:06:11,759 --> 00:06:12,999 "Jews are not allowed to enter" 81 00:06:13,239 --> 00:06:14,719 What happened? 82 00:06:15,279 --> 00:06:16,719 Hey, hey! 83 00:06:21,999 --> 00:06:23,319 Human scum 84 00:06:23,799 --> 00:06:27,999 , sons of bitches! Fucking fascists I will kill you all 85 00:06:28,639 --> 00:06:30,639 I will kill you all 86 00:06:32,199 --> 00:06:33,679 .Fucking fascists 87 00:06:33,759 --> 00:06:35,239 I will tear them up 88 00:06:36,119 --> 00:06:37,399 And their families, everything 89 00:06:37,479 --> 00:06:38,439 ...class 90 00:06:38,519 --> 00:06:39,839 . enough 91 00:06:40,439 --> 00:06:41,559 .I'm sorry 92 00:06:45,279 --> 00:06:46,519 Are you okay? 93 00:06:46,879 --> 00:06:49,719 I will walk you home No, I'm going to university- 94 00:06:49,799 --> 00:06:52,839 Which university? look at ...yourself... -Class, Class 95 00:06:54,319 --> 00:06:55,919 I want to be alone 96 00:06:57,359 --> 00:06:58,879 ...sorry, I'm just 97 00:07:00,439 --> 00:07:02,719 ?I'll call you later, okay? Thank you 98 00:07:25,879 --> 00:07:26,999 "Jews are prohibited from entering" 99 00:07:38,759 --> 00:07:39,839 "Jews are prohibited from entering" 100 00:08:52,479 --> 00:08:53,599 ...for emergency regulations 101 00:08:53,679 --> 00:08:56,359 The following students will not be allowed to continue their studies 102 00:08:59,439 --> 00:09:00,519 Hilsom, Ethy 103 00:09:22,999 --> 00:09:25,839 Everything inside me went out of despair 104 00:09:26,999 --> 00:09:28,839 Everything is simply unimaginable 105 00:09:29,159 --> 00:09:31,439 .sadness so deep 106 00:09:32,679 --> 00:09:35,399 A hell of restlessness and anxiety .with me 107 00:09:37,199 --> 00:09:40,759 I'm deteriorating back .to my "darkness of the Middle Ages". 108 00:09:46,039 --> 00:09:49,279 My body is shattered into thousands of pieces 109 00:09:50,679 --> 00:09:53,479 .and in every shard a different pain 110 00:09:58,919 --> 00:10:00,759 I stood there, eagerly waiting 111 00:10:00,839 --> 00:10:03,279 , that new powers will rise from me 112 00:10:05,919 --> 00:10:08,359 , waiting for something to melt 113 00:10:09,199 --> 00:10:11,079 .that something inside me will begin to flow 114 00:10:15,439 --> 00:10:17,359 , but my heart is like in clamps 115 00:10:18,719 --> 00:10:20,719 , everything congealed inside him 116 00:10:23,519 --> 00:10:25,959 .All the drains were blocked again 117 00:10:52,519 --> 00:10:53,919 Can you stop? 118 00:11:06,319 --> 00:11:10,319 , dear listeners .Let's hear some music 119 00:11:11,839 --> 00:11:13,719 ?Etty, what did you bring us? 120 00:11:17,119 --> 00:11:20,519 This is a work of my brother, Misha Hilsom 121 00:11:22,079 --> 00:11:24,639 The best pianist in town, sharp Meaningful 122 00:11:25,719 --> 00:11:30,799 excellent - She is called "Shani". "Preludes Opus 1 123 00:11:39,319 --> 00:11:42,359 , to everyone who joins us now 124 00:11:43,359 --> 00:11:45,439 "You are listening to "The Red Wire". 125 00:11:45,519 --> 00:11:47,599 A literary talk show 126 00:11:48,519 --> 00:11:52,519 We are here today with the writer Etty Hilsum 127 00:11:52,719 --> 00:11:54,999 who shares with us the wonderful creation .hers 128 00:11:55,839 --> 00:11:57,639 I'm Clas Semlik 129 00:13:20,759 --> 00:13:22,359 Are you okay? 130 00:13:23,559 --> 00:13:25,839 .yes, it's nothing 131 00:13:26,999 --> 00:13:30,679 I stepped on a stone .it doesn't look like anything- 132 00:13:36,959 --> 00:13:38,599 ?I'll put something on it yes- 133 00:13:41,879 --> 00:13:43,239 What are you doing here? 134 00:13:43,839 --> 00:13:45,319 ...well, never mind 135 00:13:46,679 --> 00:13:48,439 Let's sit here 136 00:13:50,199 --> 00:13:51,999 .I'll bring your bike 137 00:13:54,439 --> 00:13:55,759 .oh, baby 138 00:14:15,679 --> 00:14:17,079 I know it's stupid 139 00:14:18,159 --> 00:14:19,719 But I had to see him 140 00:14:20,599 --> 00:14:22,759 He cut my treatment early , too much 141 00:14:23,359 --> 00:14:25,479 ...I begged for another meeting, but 142 00:14:25,679 --> 00:14:29,239 Yes, I know I understand all the reasons, Lizzie- 143 00:14:29,399 --> 00:14:32,719 I am aware of the risk exactly ...like him, but 144 00:14:33,319 --> 00:14:36,559 ...you know how much I tried to yes- 145 00:14:37,519 --> 00:14:40,319 I will ask him for another meeting 146 00:14:43,759 --> 00:14:44,559 Thank you 147 00:14:45,239 --> 00:14:48,519 , it can take a few days .everyone wants to come for treatment now 148 00:14:51,079 --> 00:14:55,599 And of course Julius is in the situation ...Worse than ours, then 149 00:15:10,919 --> 00:15:11,999 What about you? 150 00:15:14,119 --> 00:15:15,519 ...oh, good 151 00:15:16,839 --> 00:15:17,919 Complete shit 152 00:15:26,239 --> 00:15:27,239 ?want to 153 00:15:41,119 --> 00:15:42,839 Peter wants to get us out of here 154 00:15:50,239 --> 00:15:52,079 ...I don't know, I 155 00:15:54,599 --> 00:15:56,319 I have everything here 156 00:15:57,039 --> 00:16:00,159 How can I start over? ... in which 157 00:16:01,279 --> 00:16:02,919 ...who knows where 158 00:16:04,199 --> 00:16:05,239 Mother! 159 00:16:05,479 --> 00:16:08,319 ?We can go down too 160 00:16:08,679 --> 00:16:10,359 .yeah, ok. come down 161 00:16:12,399 --> 00:16:13,639 What are they doing here? 162 00:16:13,719 --> 00:16:16,239 "Well, "Jews are not allowed to enter 163 00:16:18,359 --> 00:16:20,959 They were expelled from school yes of course- 164 00:16:21,079 --> 00:16:23,959 Peter has whole monologues , about how we should live 165 00:16:24,359 --> 00:16:28,119 But he is in the theater all day And it really doesn't help me 166 00:16:29,039 --> 00:16:31,999 I don't know how I eat to continue working here like this 167 00:16:33,319 --> 00:16:35,359 I'll help you with the girls 168 00:16:36,399 --> 00:16:38,159 Thank you Aunt Eti- 169 00:16:39,919 --> 00:16:41,199 We saw you fall 170 00:16:41,679 --> 00:16:44,079 What fun it is to see ?Someone else falls, right? 171 00:16:44,199 --> 00:16:45,719 No Aunt Eti- 172 00:16:46,039 --> 00:16:47,919 .Good afternoon, Miss Leah 173 00:16:47,999 --> 00:16:50,399 Let me remind you ?I'm not your aunt 174 00:16:50,479 --> 00:16:53,639 So whose aunt are you? nobody's- 175 00:16:53,839 --> 00:16:56,999 And what if you become an aunt? I will never be an aunt- 176 00:16:57,079 --> 00:16:59,999 Why not? - Because I only love You and Sophie, that's it 177 00:17:00,079 --> 00:17:01,799 Come on, let's go in 178 00:17:05,879 --> 00:17:06,799 Are you coming? 179 00:17:07,639 --> 00:17:10,639 Are you sure it's okay? Oh, Julius isn't found anyway- 180 00:17:10,919 --> 00:17:12,879 He is in the Gestapo since this morning 181 00:17:13,799 --> 00:17:15,719 I had to cancel .all his treatments today 182 00:17:16,239 --> 00:17:17,319 Are you okay? 183 00:17:18,439 --> 00:17:20,479 ?Why did he have to go there again? 184 00:17:22,239 --> 00:17:25,999 Something about the immigration documents , all the refugees were summoned there 185 00:17:26,079 --> 00:17:27,359 .not entirely clear 186 00:17:27,439 --> 00:17:30,079 ?But it's something... dangerous 187 00:17:30,599 --> 00:17:35,239 , it appears to be just a listing at the moment ...but... yeah, who knows 188 00:17:37,319 --> 00:17:39,119 Actually, maybe you can ?Something 189 00:17:39,439 --> 00:17:40,559 Mother! 190 00:17:41,559 --> 00:17:42,879 Wait a second 191 00:17:44,679 --> 00:17:45,599 I'm coming 192 00:19:20,999 --> 00:19:21,999 !Next in line 193 00:19:35,279 --> 00:19:36,239 !Next in line 194 00:19:48,079 --> 00:19:50,999 Mr. Julius Sapir yes- 195 00:19:51,599 --> 00:19:54,639 ?Your place of birth .Frankfurt- 196 00:19:55,239 --> 00:19:58,119 ?The last place of residence in Germany Berlin- 197 00:20:02,519 --> 00:20:05,839 ...these are the forms that need to be filled out for .just a moment- 198 00:20:14,199 --> 00:20:16,519 ?You are Sapir, the psychologist 199 00:20:18,559 --> 00:20:19,919 .yes, that's me 200 00:20:20,239 --> 00:20:21,959 I've heard a lot about you 201 00:20:22,559 --> 00:20:24,839 I studied psychology at Humboldt University 202 00:20:24,919 --> 00:20:26,399 .before the recruitment 203 00:20:27,279 --> 00:20:28,999 ?You were Jung's friend, right? 204 00:20:30,439 --> 00:20:33,799 ...well, not exactly a friend 205 00:20:34,279 --> 00:20:36,239 ...but we are You're the palm reader, aren't you- 206 00:20:38,359 --> 00:20:39,239 !Next in line 207 00:20:39,559 --> 00:20:43,319 .Yes, you can call it that So what would you call it- 208 00:20:45,799 --> 00:20:47,439 ...well, me 209 00:20:48,039 --> 00:20:53,439 I try to help people .to understand themselves a little better 210 00:20:54,639 --> 00:20:57,119 I use .in their palms too for that matter 211 00:21:01,199 --> 00:21:03,079 ?You would also read mine for a moment 212 00:21:17,839 --> 00:21:18,759 What 213 00:21:20,199 --> 00:21:21,399 What's the problem? 214 00:21:22,639 --> 00:21:25,759 I would highly recommend that you come to my clinic 215 00:21:26,799 --> 00:21:27,879 ?Oh, really 216 00:21:28,359 --> 00:21:29,559 .Yes 217 00:21:30,839 --> 00:21:33,679 .Many German officers come to me 218 00:21:35,439 --> 00:21:36,839 ...I would love to 219 00:21:37,999 --> 00:21:40,479 These are very private things 220 00:21:40,959 --> 00:21:42,959 ?You need more privacy 221 00:21:43,599 --> 00:21:45,959 Wait there until I call you back 222 00:21:51,359 --> 00:21:52,479 ?Better 223 00:22:08,559 --> 00:22:10,319 ?It is possible yes- 224 00:22:18,559 --> 00:22:21,999 Well, if you would come to me 225 00:22:22,439 --> 00:22:25,839 I would try to talk to you about the tragedy 226 00:22:25,919 --> 00:22:28,119 .a lie in your family 227 00:22:29,479 --> 00:22:33,679 and about your great fear .that it can happen to you too 228 00:22:36,959 --> 00:22:40,599 And I would talk to you about The extreme introvert 229 00:22:41,239 --> 00:22:43,439 .that you developed in your childhood 230 00:22:45,239 --> 00:22:47,639 , such great sensitivity 231 00:22:48,239 --> 00:22:51,559 ...I would say sensitivity almost .feminine 232 00:22:52,959 --> 00:22:55,639 , and how hard it is for you to fight her 233 00:22:55,999 --> 00:22:57,799 .hide her 234 00:23:06,519 --> 00:23:09,479 It's almost painful to watch 235 00:23:09,999 --> 00:23:13,799 What is your true character like? .contrary to everything you are doing here 236 00:23:14,719 --> 00:23:15,799 ...and 237 00:23:16,839 --> 00:23:19,999 I'm sure it's not easy for you 238 00:23:20,879 --> 00:23:24,199 On the other hand, maybe it's actually convenient for you 239 00:23:26,359 --> 00:23:29,199 There is no doubt that it is easier to please you , the tyrant 240 00:23:29,439 --> 00:23:31,359 , you are the dominant father 241 00:23:31,439 --> 00:23:34,319 .than to oppose him .I can understand that 242 00:23:36,639 --> 00:23:38,639 And you do your job here Excellent 243 00:23:39,079 --> 00:23:43,639 But...that abyss below .risking your life 244 00:23:45,479 --> 00:23:46,359 Thank you 245 00:23:49,679 --> 00:23:52,519 .You need to fill out an immigration application 246 00:23:53,079 --> 00:23:56,159 ?Excuse me All refugees must fill out- 247 00:23:59,319 --> 00:24:01,599 Your stay in the Netherlands is illegal 248 00:24:02,719 --> 00:24:05,479 ?So I have to choose where to immigrate to 249 00:24:05,599 --> 00:24:08,439 .No, we will send you 250 00:24:09,039 --> 00:24:10,399 ?But where? 251 00:24:10,719 --> 00:24:13,039 You will receive all the instructions by mail 252 00:24:13,159 --> 00:24:15,559 Until then you are not allowed to leave the city 253 00:24:16,199 --> 00:24:17,919 ...Excuse me, sir 254 00:24:18,519 --> 00:24:20,719 : I'm just trying to understand 255 00:24:20,799 --> 00:24:23,399 , if you send me there 256 00:24:23,599 --> 00:24:25,799 ?Why do I need to fill out an immigration application? 257 00:24:25,919 --> 00:24:27,879 .because that's the law 258 00:24:29,239 --> 00:24:32,999 Wait, I have papers, documents here 259 00:24:33,079 --> 00:24:34,759 ...work permits 260 00:24:35,359 --> 00:24:37,599 ...and an invitation from the university 261 00:24:37,679 --> 00:24:39,599 No, no! No ...in Utrecht- 262 00:24:39,679 --> 00:24:41,519 All this is no longer valid 263 00:24:45,279 --> 00:24:47,719 ...but how can it be that There's a long line here- 264 00:24:48,639 --> 00:24:49,719 Good luck 265 00:24:55,399 --> 00:24:58,559 .These are the forms you need to fill out 266 00:24:59,839 --> 00:25:03,279 This is the official immigration application 267 00:25:03,359 --> 00:25:04,559 Thank you very much 268 00:25:06,079 --> 00:25:07,599 Mr. Sapir 269 00:25:09,039 --> 00:25:11,399 I brought you something 270 00:25:12,879 --> 00:25:14,799 ?Sorry, you're in line 271 00:25:14,879 --> 00:25:17,439 ...I'm just bringing some water Where are you from? 272 00:25:18,879 --> 00:25:20,719 , I'm from Deventer, but I live here .in Amsterdam 273 00:25:20,799 --> 00:25:23,159 Are you an immigrant? .no- 274 00:25:23,239 --> 00:25:27,119 So what are you doing here? ...I told you, I'm just bringing water- 275 00:25:27,199 --> 00:25:31,359 Come out, please ?I can only give him this- 276 00:25:31,439 --> 00:25:32,559 .okay. now go 277 00:25:32,639 --> 00:25:33,799 !Sir, please 278 00:25:34,479 --> 00:25:36,399 from here .yes, yes- 279 00:25:38,479 --> 00:25:39,919 ?Something makes you laugh 280 00:25:40,199 --> 00:25:42,919 .Excuse me, sir Is there something you find funny here? 281 00:25:43,039 --> 00:25:44,599 .that's... that's my usual expression 282 00:26:11,279 --> 00:26:12,399 Mr. Sapir 283 00:26:19,919 --> 00:26:21,359 ?Are you okay? 284 00:26:22,639 --> 00:26:24,159 .I'm really sorry 285 00:26:28,279 --> 00:26:30,119 It's been like this since morning 286 00:26:31,439 --> 00:26:34,119 A psychosomatic reaction, of course 287 00:26:34,639 --> 00:26:37,279 , but what to do 288 00:26:37,519 --> 00:26:40,479 The body always lags behind the mind 289 00:26:41,199 --> 00:26:43,159 ?Want a sip? .no thanks- 290 00:26:49,319 --> 00:26:50,999 .thanks for that 291 00:26:52,199 --> 00:26:54,559 It was really a ray of light. thank you 292 00:27:00,319 --> 00:27:03,639 What happened to you? Oh, it's nothing- 293 00:27:04,959 --> 00:27:07,959 I fell off the bike ?It hurts- 294 00:27:08,439 --> 00:27:10,239 .a little 295 00:27:10,719 --> 00:27:12,559 ?How did it happen? 296 00:27:18,919 --> 00:27:20,559 .well, uh, it was near your house 297 00:27:21,919 --> 00:27:23,639 I was on my way there 298 00:27:25,479 --> 00:27:28,519 ...Yes, I suddenly had some kind of urge 299 00:27:29,199 --> 00:27:31,639 And you said I could call ...to you, then 300 00:27:31,759 --> 00:27:35,399 You don't have to explain .that's perfectly fine 301 00:27:39,959 --> 00:27:42,079 ...yeah... it's not like that 302 00:27:43,279 --> 00:27:45,399 ...the exercises, they are 303 00:27:46,839 --> 00:27:48,319 .they really work 304 00:27:49,319 --> 00:27:50,719 .really 305 00:27:54,719 --> 00:27:57,999 I often imagine ...how I tell you 306 00:27:58,439 --> 00:28:00,239 How good I am 307 00:28:00,959 --> 00:28:03,639 The depressions are almost gone 308 00:28:04,359 --> 00:28:06,039 ... simply, what happened in the morning 309 00:28:10,319 --> 00:28:11,879 I'm glad you came 310 00:28:14,599 --> 00:28:16,639 We need to schedule treatment 311 00:28:16,999 --> 00:28:18,999 .possible even now 312 00:28:19,159 --> 00:28:21,839 All my treatments today have been cancelled 313 00:28:22,919 --> 00:28:24,439 If you are free 314 00:28:26,599 --> 00:28:27,839 ...yes. i.e 315 00:28:28,119 --> 00:28:33,319 , it doesn't have to be something long .just some... little reinforcement 316 00:28:34,239 --> 00:28:35,319 .Yes yes- 317 00:28:36,199 --> 00:28:37,199 .good 318 00:28:42,239 --> 00:28:43,479 What about kneeling? 319 00:28:43,599 --> 00:28:45,279 ?You practiced it 320 00:28:46,919 --> 00:28:48,199 ...good 321 00:28:49,359 --> 00:28:50,839 A good excuse 322 00:28:51,439 --> 00:28:52,039 ?Yes, right 323 00:28:52,119 --> 00:28:54,359 Can we come in here for a moment? .I need something for my cough 324 00:28:54,639 --> 00:28:55,959 .Yes, sure 325 00:28:57,159 --> 00:28:58,279 "Jews are prohibited from entering" 326 00:28:58,439 --> 00:29:00,839 ?It's not our day, is it? 327 00:29:03,799 --> 00:29:05,039 Come on 328 00:29:10,639 --> 00:29:12,599 Are you sure this is a good idea? 329 00:29:12,679 --> 00:29:14,479 Yes, we both need something from here 330 00:29:18,199 --> 00:29:20,239 ?So... where were we? 331 00:29:21,439 --> 00:29:23,719 The kneeling .oh, yeah- 332 00:29:24,759 --> 00:29:26,759 I still haven't been able to bring myself .do it 333 00:29:27,559 --> 00:29:30,039 .I know, it's not easy 334 00:29:31,199 --> 00:29:34,479 .but this could be the key to everything 335 00:29:35,719 --> 00:29:38,359 ...to practice this surrender 336 00:29:38,919 --> 00:29:40,999 .It's something that can give you a lot of power 337 00:29:41,959 --> 00:29:43,319 ...I understand, but 338 00:29:45,399 --> 00:29:47,679 I can understand the reluctance ...yours 339 00:29:48,959 --> 00:29:50,519 Maybe it's better if we don't speak German 340 00:29:51,399 --> 00:29:53,679 What? No, everything is fine. go on 341 00:29:54,039 --> 00:29:56,759 ?Excuse me, are you allowed to be here? 342 00:29:57,639 --> 00:30:00,479 sorry - I apologize in advance if ...I'm wrong, though 343 00:30:00,879 --> 00:30:04,879 I'm sure you've seen the sign outside .and I think he refers to you 344 00:30:05,319 --> 00:30:07,279 And why is that exactly your business? 345 00:30:07,959 --> 00:30:10,439 It's not something personal. That's the law 346 00:30:11,519 --> 00:30:12,199 Thank you very much indeed 347 00:30:12,279 --> 00:30:14,719 I am a Dutch citizen just like you I know the law 348 00:30:14,839 --> 00:30:17,359 Listen, if you prefer .I can talk to the manager 349 00:30:17,879 --> 00:30:19,559 .that's not my job 350 00:30:21,319 --> 00:30:23,999 I'm just trying to save you money .the embarrassment 351 00:30:24,119 --> 00:30:25,679 Really thank you very much 352 00:30:28,159 --> 00:30:30,239 Come on, let's get out of here 353 00:30:55,599 --> 00:30:58,079 I'm sorry I dragged you into this 354 00:30:58,719 --> 00:30:59,759 , please 355 00:31:00,239 --> 00:31:02,119 You don't have to apologize 356 00:31:07,159 --> 00:31:08,639 ...I don't know 357 00:31:08,719 --> 00:31:10,839 How to deal with the humiliation 358 00:31:17,199 --> 00:31:18,799 ...the humiliation 359 00:31:21,159 --> 00:31:23,039 .and my hatred 360 00:31:27,399 --> 00:31:31,559 I try to tell myself : that for humiliation it always takes two 361 00:31:33,519 --> 00:31:34,999 , the one who humiliates 362 00:31:36,159 --> 00:31:38,399 .and the one who feels humiliated 363 00:31:40,799 --> 00:31:45,079 , but if you are already depressed 364 00:31:46,159 --> 00:31:49,279 , like a blade of grass, for example 365 00:31:50,319 --> 00:31:51,639 , or land 366 00:31:52,839 --> 00:31:54,559 .then you are completely free 367 00:31:58,479 --> 00:32:01,199 .It's an endless struggle, of course 368 00:32:04,679 --> 00:32:05,879 I know 369 00:32:52,359 --> 00:32:53,479 Come on, come in 370 00:32:54,079 --> 00:32:55,119 Thank you 371 00:33:03,799 --> 00:33:05,999 .after you .after you- 372 00:33:32,719 --> 00:33:34,199 Do you want something to drink? 373 00:33:35,399 --> 00:33:36,679 .Yes 374 00:33:37,279 --> 00:33:39,959 ?A glass of water, maybe yes- 375 00:33:52,719 --> 00:33:55,359 .please Thank you- 376 00:34:07,399 --> 00:34:09,479 ?Who is writing to you from London? 377 00:34:11,999 --> 00:34:13,719 .my fiancee 378 00:34:15,279 --> 00:34:18,039 We left Berlin that day 379 00:34:18,759 --> 00:34:21,799 She went to London, and I came .to here 380 00:34:24,479 --> 00:34:27,959 Three years have passed .since we last saw each other 381 00:34:33,959 --> 00:34:35,039 ...I am 382 00:34:36,799 --> 00:34:38,199 I'm sorry to hear 383 00:34:39,519 --> 00:34:40,319 .Yes 384 00:34:43,559 --> 00:34:47,759 And in light of the fact that I can't ...even go to Utrecht now 385 00:34:49,479 --> 00:34:53,119 Well, one day the war too This will end 386 00:35:01,959 --> 00:35:03,239 sorry 387 00:35:03,399 --> 00:35:06,279 ?I need a few minutes alone, okay? 388 00:35:06,519 --> 00:35:08,999 .Obviously. i will go now .no, no- 389 00:35:09,359 --> 00:35:10,479 Don't go 390 00:35:13,279 --> 00:35:17,879 I just need half an hour Then we can sit down 391 00:35:19,439 --> 00:35:20,959 Are you willing to wait? 392 00:35:22,759 --> 00:35:24,719 are you sure I can come .another time 393 00:35:24,799 --> 00:35:26,519 .Yes, I'm sure 394 00:35:30,759 --> 00:35:32,839 Feel at home 395 00:35:36,759 --> 00:35:38,879 ?Half an hour, good 396 00:37:34,919 --> 00:37:38,839 We will come back and meet again Yours, Herta 397 00:42:17,559 --> 00:42:18,839 What time is it? 398 00:42:22,479 --> 00:42:24,079 Almost eight in the evening 399 00:42:25,399 --> 00:42:26,679 What 400 00:42:27,999 --> 00:42:29,519 .I'm sorry 401 00:42:31,999 --> 00:42:35,959 it's ok I was too .needs some sleep probably 402 00:42:41,039 --> 00:42:43,439 I... I left the coat ...mine somewhere 403 00:42:46,279 --> 00:42:48,159 ?Maybe in the kitchen 404 00:43:05,719 --> 00:43:08,199 Thank you for nothing- 405 00:43:22,239 --> 00:43:23,359 Take care of yourself 406 00:43:24,199 --> 00:43:25,239 .Yes 407 00:43:26,839 --> 00:43:28,319 ...oh, you 408 00:43:28,959 --> 00:43:30,639 ...I thought 409 00:43:32,119 --> 00:43:34,399 Lizzie won't be able to work here anymore 410 00:43:34,799 --> 00:43:37,239 Because of the girls and everything 411 00:43:39,919 --> 00:43:44,239 .so I thought I might offer it to you 412 00:43:45,359 --> 00:43:47,799 Q... Work with me 413 00:43:52,559 --> 00:43:54,519 ?You talked to her about it 414 00:43:55,799 --> 00:43:57,279 Yes, I spoke 415 00:43:59,319 --> 00:44:01,639 ?Ok, what does that include? 416 00:44:02,279 --> 00:44:04,919 I really need help with the book "Mine, "by the children 417 00:44:05,599 --> 00:44:07,639 .'Investigation etc 418 00:44:11,439 --> 00:44:13,159 .well, I'll think about it 419 00:44:14,239 --> 00:44:15,479 .Yes, please 420 00:44:16,639 --> 00:44:18,719 I need to see ...how is it going with my studies? 421 00:44:23,399 --> 00:44:25,599 ...oh, well, it's not 422 00:44:28,239 --> 00:44:31,199 .well, that increases the chances 423 00:44:32,559 --> 00:44:33,839 .I'll let you know 424 00:44:52,559 --> 00:44:54,959 Good night good night- 425 00:45:18,719 --> 00:45:21,599 ----- The entrance to the Jews 426 00:45:59,359 --> 00:46:01,439 : It happened suddenly 427 00:46:03,919 --> 00:46:07,119 Something stronger than me took me down to the ground 428 00:46:10,519 --> 00:46:13,479 I was on my knees, almost a husband I have to 429 00:46:16,039 --> 00:46:17,519 , tucked in 430 00:46:18,199 --> 00:46:19,759 ...my head touches the floor 431 00:46:23,999 --> 00:46:25,799 ...sorry. I knocked 432 00:46:26,159 --> 00:46:28,559 I'm looking for a button .that fell out of my shirt 433 00:46:30,039 --> 00:46:31,239 Are you okay? 434 00:46:33,159 --> 00:46:34,039 .Yes 435 00:46:39,399 --> 00:46:40,759 .I want to show you something 436 00:46:44,439 --> 00:46:45,279 Come on 437 00:46:55,919 --> 00:46:57,279 ?What do you think? 438 00:46:57,759 --> 00:46:59,559 I painted this morning 439 00:47:01,919 --> 00:47:03,439 I arranged the clothes 440 00:47:03,599 --> 00:47:05,279 I cleared everything that was there 441 00:47:08,519 --> 00:47:09,839 Impressive 442 00:47:11,599 --> 00:47:13,599 .I want you to take a picture of it 443 00:47:14,599 --> 00:47:17,839 I need solid proof .to my improved state of mind 444 00:47:17,919 --> 00:47:20,759 Yes, your improved state of mind 445 00:47:20,839 --> 00:47:23,359 in which you ride the bike .at night after the start of the curfew 446 00:47:23,679 --> 00:47:27,199 I came through Luman Street and St Warhol. There is never anyone there 447 00:47:27,279 --> 00:47:28,519 From where? 448 00:47:30,559 --> 00:47:32,159 .from Corbett Street 449 00:47:32,319 --> 00:47:33,719 From Sapir 450 00:47:36,159 --> 00:47:38,839 He just offered me a job .and that's why I lingered there 451 00:47:38,919 --> 00:47:42,479 I didn't know you were back there 452 00:47:43,639 --> 00:47:44,799 I didn't come back 453 00:47:45,319 --> 00:47:48,159 Lizzie can't anymore , to work there because of the girls 454 00:47:48,359 --> 00:47:50,679 So he asked me to change her 455 00:47:52,359 --> 00:47:54,159 , she earns about 500 per month 456 00:47:54,239 --> 00:47:58,359 Not much, but still I don't have a university anymore 457 00:48:02,599 --> 00:48:03,599 ?What do you think? 458 00:48:07,519 --> 00:48:09,079 What were you doing there on the floor? 459 00:48:13,519 --> 00:48:15,239 .it's... a kind of exercise 460 00:48:17,559 --> 00:48:18,999 .one of his exercises 461 00:48:20,079 --> 00:48:21,879 I haven't tried it yet ...and I thought 462 00:48:22,279 --> 00:48:24,319 .that I should give it a chance 463 00:48:25,199 --> 00:48:26,639 : I have a question 464 00:48:27,279 --> 00:48:30,359 His exercises can prevent ?The one who will kill you 465 00:48:31,399 --> 00:48:35,119 what? - You understand that something has changed ?Today, yes 466 00:48:35,759 --> 00:48:38,279 ?You've seen the signs all over town ...Of course I saw them- 467 00:48:38,359 --> 00:48:42,239 Beautiful, and you understand that ?Just the beginning? to all of you 468 00:48:42,399 --> 00:48:43,439 .they won't stop 469 00:48:43,519 --> 00:48:45,799 ...you can't know that .I know that- 470 00:48:46,959 --> 00:48:48,519 , and we need to think of a plan 471 00:48:49,439 --> 00:48:52,399 , to think how to get you out of here 472 00:48:52,559 --> 00:48:54,519 instead Those questionable exercises 473 00:48:55,279 --> 00:48:57,639 ...and a new job at the , this spiritual charlatan 474 00:48:57,719 --> 00:49:00,879 which I think takes everything out of you .your most unhealthy sides 475 00:49:00,959 --> 00:49:01,919 .Han, you don't know him 476 00:49:01,999 --> 00:49:06,279 .Your biggest fear is going crazy .and rightly so, given your genes 477 00:49:06,679 --> 00:49:10,279 But what sets you apart From your crazy brothers 478 00:49:10,359 --> 00:49:14,119 , that's your rationality , your logical thinking 479 00:49:15,039 --> 00:49:17,079 ...and you throw it all away for 480 00:49:17,759 --> 00:49:18,919 .I don't know what 481 00:49:54,839 --> 00:49:56,519 ?You know something, Han 482 00:49:58,839 --> 00:50:01,679 .I lost that fear. from going crazy 483 00:50:04,879 --> 00:50:06,079 .it's gone 484 00:50:08,599 --> 00:50:11,399 I know now that it is forever Won't happen 485 00:50:15,279 --> 00:50:17,799 I don't quite know , how to explain all this to you 486 00:50:19,319 --> 00:50:22,319 I myself do not understand exactly What is happening to me? 487 00:50:24,759 --> 00:50:27,599 But I know I'm going , to somewhere 488 00:50:28,599 --> 00:50:31,519 And I know that if I persevere ...in this 489 00:50:33,639 --> 00:50:35,919 I won't be afraid of anything anymore 490 00:50:39,879 --> 00:50:41,319 From nothing 491 00:50:57,079 --> 00:50:58,079 .late 492 00:51:00,759 --> 00:51:01,759 .Yes 493 00:51:06,639 --> 00:51:08,879 ?I can come sleep with you 494 00:51:12,559 --> 00:51:14,239 .Maybe it's better not tonight 495 00:51:18,039 --> 00:51:19,879 I love you very very much 496 00:51:22,119 --> 00:51:23,199 ?You know that, right? 497 00:52:02,159 --> 00:52:03,559 .something is happening 498 00:52:09,079 --> 00:52:12,399 I feel like I am , in a hot melting pot 499 00:52:14,079 --> 00:52:16,359 .forges into something else 500 00:52:17,399 --> 00:52:18,759 But for what? 501 00:52:19,599 --> 00:52:20,839 I was passive 502 00:52:21,679 --> 00:52:24,039 .I could only let it happen 503 00:52:27,079 --> 00:52:29,239 : Suddenly it seems so clear to me 504 00:52:31,079 --> 00:52:35,119 This morning, these are not the decrees themselves .that caused my depression 505 00:52:36,239 --> 00:52:38,359 It's always the feeling inside me 506 00:52:38,719 --> 00:52:41,839 which compares the impression to events .their oppressor or threat 507 00:52:44,759 --> 00:52:47,519 For me, it's always from the inside out 508 00:52:48,279 --> 00:52:49,919 .never the other way around 509 00:52:52,919 --> 00:52:54,519 , even for the most threatening decrees 510 00:52:54,599 --> 00:52:58,439 There is no power when they meet The clarity and security within me 511 00:53:00,359 --> 00:53:01,519 , now 512 00:53:01,799 --> 00:53:08,039 , with this clarity within me , I am filled with a feeling of fullness 513 00:53:08,919 --> 00:53:11,559 I feel like heaven is inside me 514 00:53:12,119 --> 00:53:14,919 spread wide , like those outside of me 515 00:53:15,725 --> 00:53:19,205 And my inner landscape , is like a vast grain field 516 00:53:19,917 --> 00:53:23,119 .grows, and ripens 517 00:53:33,919 --> 00:53:34,839 Writing and directing: Hagai Levy 518 00:53:34,919 --> 00:53:36,279 Producers: Yael Vogel Leticia Gonzalez 519 00:53:36,359 --> 00:53:37,639 , Jonas Dornbach, Frans van Gestel 520 00:53:37,759 --> 00:53:39,999 , Ilon Rachkovsky, Ossi Neshri Hagai Levi 521 00:53:40,079 --> 00:53:41,519 Artistic producer: A kind of paradise 522 00:53:41,879 --> 00:53:43,759 Edited by: Yael Harsonsky .Neta Dvorakis, Assaf Korman 523 00:53:43,839 --> 00:53:44,879 Screenplay editing: Ossi Neshri